This is a post I’ve been pondering over for a while now. Thoughts in my head that go away for a short time only to quickly return.
I’ve put this off thinking it wasn’t politically correct to actually share this on this blog.
But here goes nothing…..
I’m discouraged and in a rut.
I really do want to “just blog for myself” and not worry about the numbers-or the comments-or the Facebook fans-and some of the time I do-but for the most part I’m blogging for you, my readers-all 10 of you. Okay it’s a few more than that; I’m exaggerating. But not much more.
I blog, I blog and I blog and my readership stays the same. The numbers are few. The comments are rare (with the exception of a very few faithful, for which I am grateful).
I’ve tried so many different ways to improve. I’ve offered give a ways, I’ve offered recipes, I’ve offered advice, I’ve offered encouragement only to find myself considering shutting it down all together. I am mentally tired.
I have (practically) a full time job outside of the home (with a 2-hour commute), I have a part time professional job on the side and I’m still trying to be
decent wife and mother (which itself is full time as well). All the while trying to take care of myself and keep up with my own personal interests. I realize I’m not the only one; I know this is the average scenario of the American home.
But add the blogging to that mix. For the most part, blogging is easy and I enjoy it. But one thing that blogging is—it’s very time consuming. There are posts that may only take a few minutes to write….most take hours to compose. I put my entire self and energy into making sure a particular post is perfect…easy to read, easy to understand, with good pictures, researched well, sometimes just fun to read, but most of the time hoping it’s helpful to you.
I’m sorry to whine. I’m hope you’re not offended. But I honestly needed to get this off my chest.
I’ll blog again. Because I enjoy it too much. But for now, I’m taking a break. I need to step away for just a bit, regroup and get over my pity party.